This morning I woke up feeling HORRIBLE. Like there was a rock in my stomach....reminds me a lot of how I felt before I had my emergency surgery back in June.
I know it cant be the same thing...since they removed what was my issue before...I think I maybe had too much wine and aggravated an ulcer....but can I find out?? Nope...no job = no benefits.
This is where it becomes scary....I worry about stuff like this getting out of hand. It makes me want to cry. I am scared there will be something seriously wrong and I wont know it.
I miss the freedom of having benefits....getting taken care of when I need to...but since I left Verizon in August I have not had benefits and its just now starting to get scary.
Its bad enough paying for medications out of pocket...but now I am scared and cant really do much about it.
I am going to bed soon....ambien is melting as I type...and I have decided if I wake up feeling this bad tomorrow, I will just let them bill me and go see the doctor....I am just too freaked out.
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