Hello...my name is Jessica... and I am a spazzy over-thinker

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HI JESSICA.

Yep, I am a total spazzy over thinker. I over process. I worry and stress and think and think and worry and wonder and ... it just continues.

So... right now I am worrying/stressing/over-thinking this upcoming weekend.

Background:

Before ...Moral Orel and I used to see each other a lot. Like almost every day kinda thing. It was nice.

It was only a very short while...but it was a nice routine to have.

Now we both live with our parents. We now see each other kinda like high school kids who go do different schools...on weekends.  His weekends and mine do not always match up...and well...neither of us believes in being intimate in the parental units homes....so we are even more limited.

On the 30th, we stayed in a hotel...just one night after moving all day. It was nice. I had to work on the 31st.

We have seen each other since...lunches and dinners and even hung out all day Sunday...but again...with parental units.

So this upcoming weekend, we are staying in a hotel! (woohoo!)...I am looking at the dates of my last period ...and I fear it might come just in time for our lovely weekend together... *sigh* and on Saturday night.. we were going to do the original meet the parents thing then...

I instead met them early (while Moral was moving) and have hung out a couple of times since.

So the formal dinner out has turned into more of a make dinner at his parents house so his sister (who just had the baby the other day) could come if she wanted. A more casual yet a bit more pressure since I will be cooking....

I am now working with chef (my chef here at work...I just call him chef) who is a Michelin star rated chef...he is super cool and I think brilliant and fun...

So chef... is helping me create the menu...a wine sales rep was kind enough to offer me a bottle for each course I make... he said just to send him the menu and he will rock out the wine for each course. (WOW!!)

....so now working on a menu...praying I don't get my period... missing Moral... not getting to speak to him too often (he works mornings and I work nights) ...

Did I mention he does not like to communicate via text??...that just kills me!!

I am always worrying about annoying him with texts or emails or whatever...but I work in a place where I cant be on the phone. So its just a mess.

....ok...wrap up the worry. This is my list of stuff I am spazzing out over now.

1: Possible visit from aunt flow
2: Menu for Saturday night
3: Annoying the one I love and miss with my crazy spazzy over thinking texts
4: Crating a romantic weekend
5: Not being too pushy (not sure about what but I always worry about that)

so like... I dunno.


I just need to calm down....its just not happening.