Do you ever just know??

I mean KNOW. Like with all your heart...with NO facts..but you just KNOW something is true or will happen or whatever....

I have never really been one to KNOW something without some fact behind it...but there is something that I just feel like I KNOW.

....not going to say what it is....because I am not sure about anything regarding it yet...its just this crazy strange feeling.

One upon a time....I felt like I KNEW something. I felt it in my bones...but now I know that the thing I felt was all created by people and circumstances and I read too much into it.

This has felt more instinctual since it ever came to be...

I guess my fear of KNOW-ing something...is that of course I could be wrong. I dont like being wrong, who does...but seriously, I get happy when I think that I KNOW something...this thing...but then I shake my head, bring myself back to reality and remember that I COULD be wrong. 

*shrug* 

Its just strange...and I know I am rambling....its not even that late.


The past 2 days I have been going to sleep at about 7am. Today I woke up at 5pm.

I think there is some depression and stress going on with this job situation. I am not used to not working. I always work. I have held a steady job since I was 16. Never left a job without having another job already in the bag. Its just kinda scary.

*le sigh* 

I am going to try and sleep at a normal time today.... wish me luck!