For the past few nights...I have been having nightmares.
Now of course I am staying up all hours of the night watching Criminal Minds...so nightmares would be expected but these are not about kidnappings or rapes or murder or anything that the show covers.
I keep having nightmares that I am pregnant. *sigh*
My period is due in a week....and I think I know where all this is coming from, I have 2 women in my life who are pregnant right now and do not want to be...but I wish that their bad juju was not falling on me. I am hoping that is all it is...that I am stressing because they are stressing but I can not wait until I get my period!!
How often do you think that!?!? haha Most of the time, I am dreading it but this time...I WANT IT! One more week. One week. One week of freaking out and one week of nightmares.
Blah blah blah.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Life...its a funny thing.
Tonight...as I watch Criminal Minds (yes...started the show from the beginning and now I am HOOKED!) I found out my friend had both her breasts removed.
We found out recently that she had stage 4 breast cancer....I mean she literally woke up and one of her breasts was doubled in size. How could they have missed this??? She was going to school for nursing stuff...I mean I am just floored that no one saw this.
She moved to Atlanta recently... left her whole life...her kids are grown and she was getting out and doing something for herself...so exciting...now so much change.
I thought she was having surgery in April...
*sigh*
I need to get my butt to Atlanta.
In other news...I weighed in today... 256! not bad at all.
We found out recently that she had stage 4 breast cancer....I mean she literally woke up and one of her breasts was doubled in size. How could they have missed this??? She was going to school for nursing stuff...I mean I am just floored that no one saw this.
She moved to Atlanta recently... left her whole life...her kids are grown and she was getting out and doing something for herself...so exciting...now so much change.
I thought she was having surgery in April...
*sigh*
I need to get my butt to Atlanta.
In other news...I weighed in today... 256! not bad at all.
Monday, March 7, 2011
I have the FLU!!
3 days with a fever...but at least that is gone now.
I just lay in bed and suffer...not hungry...not thirsty...just stuffy...feeling gross.
So no workout to report but I am not eating a bunch of anything either..so thats at least a good balance.
I just lay in bed and suffer...not hungry...not thirsty...just stuffy...feeling gross.
So no workout to report but I am not eating a bunch of anything either..so thats at least a good balance.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Another day... another workout...
So I have admittedly been a huge slacker ....I have been working out sporadically...but nothing serious. I did complete some long walks (8 miles) in preparation for Bay to Breakers (BTW...I still need donations for Breathe California! Read about it and donate HERE!!)
But thats not the point... I am starting to wonder how many times someone can "start" and "fail" and keep on going without seeming ridiculous...I have been saying I am going to lose this weight for 8 years...I lost a good chunk of it back in 2006...got down to 200lbs...but then it came right back.
The only way I lose weight is working out every day...if I want to be thinner/smaller ... I have to realize that and make a commitment to it being a daily thing.
Anyhoo...today I busted out my TransFIRMer and did the supercharged sculpting workout...which is a combo of cardio and weights and SUPER HIGH stepping.
My legs feel like jello as I am sprawled across my bed writing this blog entry but that is a good thing. Tomorrow, if the weather is nice, I would like to get out and do a long walk at an easy pace and see how I do. Tonight when I get back from dinner with 21, I would like to bang out some yoga ...
No job = all the time in the world... so I have no excuses...I just need to figure out how to get past my fears and insecurities and just do this.
Well, in this workout...well before it...I took my measurements and I am going to do that every 10 FIRM workouts (about 3 weeks) so I can track my progress. I am also going to weigh in at that time as well and post it in my blog update such as this one I am writing now. This way, I am more accountable.
These numbers are pre-workout in my workout clothing (meaning sports bra)
Name: Jessica
Height: 5'5" (on a good day..haha)
Weight: 264lbs (Yikes)
Arms: 18"
Bust: 48" (50 in a regular bra)
Under Bust: 43"
Waist: 44" (smallest part of me)
Abs: 48" (1" above the belly button)
Hips: 51"
R Thigh: 32"
L Thigh: 31"
I dont give a shit about my calves at all...nor my forearms, neck or a lot of the other things they say you should measure...I just care about the above measurements.
So with Bay to Breakers like 12 weeks away...I am trying to set a reasonable goal for myself ... What do you think a reasonable goal would be for some sort of loss between now and then??
Yep..thats it...that is me...for now...
Each day, I am planning to hop on here just after I finish my workouts and post what I did for the day and my thoughts/feelings about it. Might be at the very end of the day, before I go to sleep so I can include yoga in the post (since I like to do that right before bed)
<3 <3 <3
But thats not the point... I am starting to wonder how many times someone can "start" and "fail" and keep on going without seeming ridiculous...I have been saying I am going to lose this weight for 8 years...I lost a good chunk of it back in 2006...got down to 200lbs...but then it came right back.
The only way I lose weight is working out every day...if I want to be thinner/smaller ... I have to realize that and make a commitment to it being a daily thing.
Anyhoo...today I busted out my TransFIRMer and did the supercharged sculpting workout...which is a combo of cardio and weights and SUPER HIGH stepping.
My legs feel like jello as I am sprawled across my bed writing this blog entry but that is a good thing. Tomorrow, if the weather is nice, I would like to get out and do a long walk at an easy pace and see how I do. Tonight when I get back from dinner with 21, I would like to bang out some yoga ...
No job = all the time in the world... so I have no excuses...I just need to figure out how to get past my fears and insecurities and just do this.
Well, in this workout...well before it...I took my measurements and I am going to do that every 10 FIRM workouts (about 3 weeks) so I can track my progress. I am also going to weigh in at that time as well and post it in my blog update such as this one I am writing now. This way, I am more accountable.
These numbers are pre-workout in my workout clothing (meaning sports bra)
Name: Jessica
Height: 5'5" (on a good day..haha)
Weight: 264lbs (Yikes)
Arms: 18"
Bust: 48" (50 in a regular bra)
Under Bust: 43"
Waist: 44" (smallest part of me)
Abs: 48" (1" above the belly button)
Hips: 51"
R Thigh: 32"
L Thigh: 31"
I dont give a shit about my calves at all...nor my forearms, neck or a lot of the other things they say you should measure...I just care about the above measurements.
So with Bay to Breakers like 12 weeks away...I am trying to set a reasonable goal for myself ... What do you think a reasonable goal would be for some sort of loss between now and then??
Yep..thats it...that is me...for now...
Each day, I am planning to hop on here just after I finish my workouts and post what I did for the day and my thoughts/feelings about it. Might be at the very end of the day, before I go to sleep so I can include yoga in the post (since I like to do that right before bed)
<3 <3 <3
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